I had a heart to heart conversation with myself last night about this continuing issue with insomnia here.  I’m sharing it with you here just so you can see what I’m talking up.

Curious Me:  Hey, what’s up with the sleeping lately?

Honest me:  You know what – I have poor sleep hygiene.  That’s what’s  really going on. . . . I have things (which I’m choosing not to share with you, my readers, but I was very specific with myself  on these issues) that are really shaking me up and I don’t want to turn off at night.  \

So, I find things to do like watch Survivor for the third time again as a way to bond with my son, do the laundry, read a book, eat popcorn at 11PM, anything but – get ready for bed.  Then, of course, there’s putting away the laundry, cleaning up the kitchen so it’s spotless in the morning (great habits  that my beloved mother taught me and that I value because I love waking up to order in the morning – nothing like it!), reading some inspirational books, maybe some writing, taking a shower using my favorite lotions and potions from Aardvard Essentials, etc.

Aside here – these are all great nurturing activities.  I’m not worried or anxious about anything.  And, they are also activities that if I thought about it I could do earlier as preparation for bed rather than beginning them at 11PM.

Honest me continuing here:  The result is getting in bed itself around 2-2:30 PM and then being unable to settle down.  Sleeping til 6 or so and all parts of me know that it works for a couple days but is not sustainable.

Critical Me:  Well, W-H-Y has it taken you so long to figure this out?  What’s wrong with me?

Honest Me:  Nothing wrong here – it just takes what it takes.  Yeah, I wish I’d figured it out sooner and there’s more to it but the long and short of it is – now that I know this, what am I willing to do about it?

Critical Me:  Yeah, what ARE you willing to do about it?

Honest Me:  Well there’s the “should answer” here that feels like the obvious solution.  Change your behavior honey.  Start these activities at 8PM

Responsible Me:  Yeah, for your own good, I’m suggesting you do that.

Rebellious Me:  Nope – not doing that.  I’m NOT getting ready for bed at 8PM.

Curious Me:  Well, what are you willing to do then?  I get you’re not ready to reform this all in one fell swoop here.

Honest Me:  Well, I am willing to call my doctor and fess up to what’s really going on here.

So, I did just that and she said to me, “Char, I know how hard this is for you right now (since she has some understanding of the personal circumstances surrounding this.)  And I know you’re getting other professional support to deal with these issues. 

So, what I recommend is that you take the sleeping medication I’ve prescribed for you no later than 3AM.  After that, you’re gonna be stuck with whatever shows up in terms of sleep that night.  You need to get through the day somehow with no nap and you’ll be so tired, you’ll sleep that night.  You’ll be okay – you’re dealing with it.”

I really feel like sending her a dozen roses today for getting it – and I just may do that – because I’m so grateful that she gets it and has come up with a logical do-able plan that I think will probably work for me.

This is amazing to me.  I woke up feeling hopeless – I now know that I’ll struggle through my day but I’ll do exactly as she said and we’ll see what happens.

It’s gonna be a good day – now that I have a plan and know that I’m not a lost cause here.

What do you do when you can’t sleep?  Have you considered what part YOUR actions play in your insomnia?  Would it help to have a do-able plan with this?  If so, that is indeed possible. 

You can contact your health care provider, you can contact me for the parts that you need support with knowing I’m not a physician but that I’ve been there, done that with respect to dealing with health concerns as my own patient and caregiver, and there are many other avenues that you can use for self exploration.

I’d love to hear your story – help is on the way.  There’s so many ways to solve health issues in our lives – feel free to borrow anything that works from me or my other readers.

5 Responses to “Insomnia Insights Continued. . . .”

  1. GirlPie Says:

    So GLAD I can’t relate to this terrible sleep debt you live with, Char, but I hope anyone who does finds you… seems like a smart exercise, this conversation you had.

    I too get revved up before bed — I’m often most creative between 5 pm and 2 am, and then I want to do as you do (never leave dishes in the sink, for example.) BUT having a BoyPie who I know sleeps better when I’m next to him helps me curb my selfish desire to stay up all night on anything I enjoy when alone (writing, reading, organizing, etc.)

    Off to hit the hay now… or, maybe after just ONE more post ~ ! HA!

    ~ @TheGirlPie

  2. Char Says:

    Seriously Girlpie–

    You crack me up. . . . I’m glad that I got you reconsidering your 5PM workup before bed. I hear you when you say you are most creative at that time and it’s hard to turn off that brilliance and learn more or share more with others.

    I’m glad that you and your Boypie (love that name by the way!!)get the healthy sleep you need.

    Thank you again for using some of your creative mind on my blog. I benefit . . . . as do others.

  3. coffee Pure Cleanse Says:

    I really like your blog.. very nice colors & theme. Did you create this website yourself or did you hire someone
    to do it for you? Plz answer back as I’m looking to design my own blog and would like to find out where u got this from. cheers

  4. Char Says:

    I did not design my website. All my tech stuff is referred out. Sorry I can’t be of more help to you.
    Happy blogging!

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